There are two parts to me. One subsisting when I am by myself and the other when encompassing my social life. I am driven, motivated, and impelled to be something great when I'm by myself. I am induced by what I see and feel. I want to be something else then what I am. Outside this it is not that I do not want to be more but more that I get lost in what I already am. Sounds like something to be satisfied with yet I always regret things I do with even the highest confidence. So my ambition swings back and forth. I try to teach myself to stay on task. How can someone fear there own selves will lead them astray?